for my fudge 🥺

dear fudge, i know we arent supposed to talk but i just wanted this to be my final message for the time being, inshaallah we'll talk again when the times right but I just wanted to give you my final message and instead of a long paragraph on instagram I decided to immortalize my message on a website with our "theme song" playing in the background. i dont know where to begin but i thank god everyday for you. i dont think of you as my girlfriend or my "bachi" 👹 to me you're my other half. youre just another part of me. i feel like i dont have to hide anything about myself from you because i know youll always love me regardless of anything. youre the best woman i've ever found outside of my family. In a world full of double faced, decieving and vicious men and women i dont know how i found you but im thankful i did. this wasn't just a relationship to me this was me discovering myself in another body (idk if that made any sense but i hope you get what i mean 😭😭😭). i never believed in soulmates like the odds of finding that one person out of 4 billion people spread across the entire world, it just seemed inncorrect to me..... until i met you <3 you can not convince me otherwise that you're not my soulmate. whenever i see that pretty and innocent face of yours irl, everything else in the frame goes blurry, my body starts feeling weak and my heart begins feeling heavy in a way i can't explain. i remember when i first met you i loved how friendly you were with me and you seemed the typa person who always stayed happy and supportive. as i grew closer to you and you felt comfortable taking your armor off infront of me, i saw the innocent little sweet girl with ocean eyes whom you'd just wanna hug and never let go. I remember this vividly when i first saw you irl and I couldn't believe how this tiny girl is soooo pretty like wayyyy prettier than in the pictures i saw. this little 5'2" gurya was laughing and just sooo whimsical and just gets shy whenever i complimented her. I still remember your reaction when I got on my knees to give you the resistor bracelet. you were just so surprised and got shy. I ran home after that wishing that you would be mine once again. I felt that if i could make you mine the first time then i knew that i could make you mine again for the second time, and that's exactly what happened. I got the worlds prettiest woman ever all to myself. mujhe rona aa raha as im writing this 😭😭😭😭😭 we've spend such an incredible time together i cant wait to see whats ahead in our future <3 fajar i know there will always be more prettier and better men than me out there who would want you too but i can assure you that if you sum up the amount of love they have for you and let that be x and then if you take x to be the power of x recourring aka infinite x tetration and then you take my love for you as y and then pass y through a super logarithm then y would still be greater than x. or in other words slogₑ(y) > lim₍ₙ→₎ x ↑↑ n yeah whatever that nonsense meant i hope it explained something to you and gave you a sense of scale about my love for you. I know the next years are going to be hard but i also know that my gurya is strong and nothing can take her down. i know the little delicate soul my gurya is and if you were in my arms i would never let anything bother you but for now we are going to have to wait. i want to let you know something else too, i really love your smile like i really do i remember when you and i were sitting on the curb on our 4th date and you were talking to sarah api on how i wanted to congratulate her and the way you were looking up and smiling just blew my heart into pieces from all the butterflies that i got. i also remember when you cut your hair short and sent a picture and how i got obsessed over your new look, you looked absolutely mesmerizing. now dont get me wrong i like you with long hair more but i just instantly snapped onto your new look and fell in love with it. i can promise you that even if you cut your hair in a million different ways or change in whatever way, i would fall in love with you again and again as long as its the same soul as it's my pyaru fudgy theorem's soul. if you ever get the feeling that i'll ever be unfaithful to you while youre away or i'll forget about you then just know that i wouldnt ever do something that would hurt my pyaru fudge even if she doesnt find out about it. besides theres no point in dealing any damage to the healthy bond we built together all for some 2 kouri ki larki. why would i ever go for something far inferior from you. I just want to say thank you for everything youve given me through these 4 months. Though we fought alot we always got back together, apologized and built an even stronger bond. thank you soo much for all the love youve given me. ill rememeber all of this forever, ill remember all the times you got jealous and overprotective over me (i love that alot), all the times you said "I love you" to me, all the times you've said "i miss you" to me and all the times you've said that you wanted to hug me <3 Anyways fudge, that's going to be all for now. I wish i could say all of this to you irl or give you a card or something but this was the best i could do and yeah it'll keep the site up and running for as long as possible, it might have temporary downtimes but i want to immortalize my last message to you so that you can come read it every now and then. "Anyways" 🤡🤡🤡 LOVE YOU SOOOO MUCHIEE MERI PARYU CUTU CHOTI SI GURYA MWAHHHHHH MWAHHHHHHH MWAHHHHHHHH LOVE YOU FOREVER 💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 YOURE THE BEST FAJAR I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU MWAHHHH MERI CUTU GURYA MWAHHH I LOVE YOUUU 🥺💗🥺💗🥺💗🥺💗🥺💗🥺💗🥺 byee 💗🥺💗🥺💗🥺